According to new research, eating an apple a day can help significantly reduce the risk of bowel cancer. I have no reason to doubt this. However, one thing I'm learning very fast is that every person is different. Cancer is aggressive and shows no mercy whether you've eaten an apple a day or not. My burden of grief that I spoke about previously is related to my Dad. He has advanced stage cancer of the colon a.k.a bowel cancer. He was diagnosed 15 months ago and although he's had chemotherapy and surgery, the cancer has returned to such a degree, they're now only offering him palliative treatment.
We only found this out a few days ago. It's still sinking in. I don't actually know what to do with myself. This is from my perspective. I can't even begin to talk about how this is affecting my Dad and my Mum. That's a whole other blog post. Or my siblings and my children.
For me, I need something to get into. I have great goals and hopes for 2010. More crafty projects. More art to create. Revamping my website (its nearly finished). New friends to make. I'm overwhelmed by the blessings in my life. And yet, I do have this huge burden of grief. I can't stop for a moment and think about how it could engulf me. I need to keep moving. I know one day it'll catch up but for now. I have to keep busy and carry on as normal. My Dad said to us that we should all live our lives "one day at a time". Enjoy that day. Tomorrow's not promised to any of us. I'm honouring my Dad now, through the coming days, weeks, months, by living for today as best I can.
My life's been a roller coaster ride for a good 10 yrs now with one thing and another. In and out of various seasons. Some quite painful. Some resulting in me ending up more or less as a hermit, in my own little world. It was time for me to step out and meet new people. I shouldn't have worried as everyone made me feel welcome including Kate, who owns Pickleberry Papercraft, and Jane, who is teaching the workshop.
Oh and I'm eating an apple a day.