Thursday, 25 February 2010

Standing Still

Life's on hold.  Most days I'm on some kind of automatic pilot.  Just getting through each day and doing my best not to think too much about tomorrow.  I hope tomorrow never comes.  I know really that it will.  Dad's cancer has progressed.  My sister and I spend our days doing what we can to be with our parents; to help wherever we can.  And you know what?  It's an honour and a privelege.  No matter how tired I am; no matter how drained I feel, every day that I'm with my parents, I consider to be a privelege.  They gave me life.  A good childhood.  Wisdom.  Love.  And many good values, morals and so much more.

Helping my Dad and my Mum get through this horrible time is the very least I can do.

One day, I will pick up the pieces of my life and carry on.  Right now, I'm standing still in a place where I'm needed most.

8 comments:

Megan Hoover said...

what a beautiful post...I know so many people who've been affected by cancer (me included...my mother-in-law died 13 years ago this Dec.) i'll say a little prayer for you all. I know you don't know me...i picked up your blog somewhere along my creative path. hope you don't mind some prayers coming your way from a stranger. God listens to any prayers, no matter the source.

mystele said...

thinking of you and your loved ones...and you're not standing still. you're moving exactly where you should be! this is life right now, in all of its bitter-sweetness, joy and sorrow. it has a different face, but His face is the same. paint love all over your mum and dad and His love will lay hold of you and keep you strong. you are beautiful...live. xo

Sarah said...

Keep on going Di, it's all you can do. Sending good thoughts to you and your family.
x

Debbie said...

I hope you dont mind me leaving you a message. Im so sorry youre going through this :( We lost my dad 2 years ago to cancer and it certainly makes you appreciate family a whole lot more. Chin up, be strong and enjoy the time you have together...sending love and thoughts to you all xxx

Pickleberry Papercrafts said...

Sending you a big {{{hug}}} Di, take care x

Kimberly Cordell said...

My parents are both gone now. You are so right to spend every moment with them. it is hard to say good bye, but their legacy and yours is to pass down those wonderful values and good memories. God bless you in this transitional time.

Love Always,
Kim

lilly's bean said...

xxx

Lisa said...

My Dad died last year and after the deep, deep sadness lifted just a bit, I heard a voice inside my head say..."I died, you didn't. Live life for the both of us. That is why I brought you into this world --- To live! So pick yourself up and enjoy your journey and know that I am not dead, but living an abundant life in a new and beautiful arena." Hope this helps.