Wednesday, 27 June 2007

My Daughter

I'm missing my daughter, Jenni, so much. She's just turned 20 yrs old and is a beautiful young woman. She's so sweet and funny and incredibly precious to me. I was thinking about going to Hobby Craft the other day and thought I'd call Jen - we both love craft/art and love going to Hobby Craft.. and then I remembered - she's in New Zealand. They're the times I miss her more than normal. I remember our little jaunts in the car together and especially when she stayed with me and Steve in Yorkshire. She was a delight. We would go for walks together and go into the next village and wander round all the lovely shops. So yeah! I miss my daughter.BUT

I know she's in the best place. She's happy. She's got a good job. She's surrounded by people who love her and support her. She's part of a fantastic church and has a wonderful church family. But she's on the other side of the world and I miss her. I'm waiting for my house to sell (that I had with my ex-husband) so I can afford to go and visit her. As soon as we've got a buyer and it's sold, I'm booking my ticket and going out there for at least 3 weeks.

Things have been so very hard for my children. I did my best to protect my kids from the divorce and reason for the divorce even though I knew eventually they would have to know. And that they are adults and you just can't protect them from everything in life. It's slowly getting better. And for Jenni that means being in New Zealand starting a new life. I know she needs to be where she is and I'm so happy for her. I'd rather she was there and thriving than here being very unhappy and struggling every day. Even if that means I can't see her as much as I'd like to. Ugh!

Having the internet helps so much. Thank God for this modern technology. Yay! We email and talk on MSN so that helps. I can't wait to go and see her though. I'm going on my own as Steve has to work and then next year we are planning a holiday out there to see her again.

Jen? You truly do colour my world. I love you, sweetheart and I miss you lots. Stay happy! And pray for that house to get sold!

1 comment:

Sarebear said...

Wow. The depth of your emotion, and longing for your daughter's company, hits powerfully, as much as it can over the internet.

I am so sorry for your troubles; I hope you can go see her soon!!

These layouts are beautiful; the first one just takes my breath away, and I'd like to scraplift, if that's okay, for a layout about my own daughter. If I can figure out the blending? the background/photo/texture? I'll change up stuff of course, but I'd definitely credit you for the layout design/idea.

Wow. Have you ever heard the song by Martina McBride, In My Daughter's Eyes? I get a powerful, intensity of emotion when I hear that. Yes, she's a country singer, but this is a plain ballad.