Monday 7 September 2009

Freedom of Self. True to Self.

I'm wanting to achieve this. It's not a huge deal but it's what I'm feeling. Freedom to express myself without fear. Freedom to just be me. To dream big. Aspire. And inspire. To be healthy, fit and happy without it having an hidden agenda i.e the world tells me I'm too fat (so therefore I have to lose weight). I just want to be healthy. If that means I lose weight (which I am) than that's great. The motivation is about me and my family.

I want to be true to myself about my Faith in Christ. I believe in God. I believe that Jesus is Lord. Saviour. I don't have all the answers. But I know they're there somewhere. I know what I know in my spirit. In my heart and my mind. I want to move forward in that. I'm searching more. I know I have to increase my Faith and not be so self-doubting.

Freedom to creatively express myself. My hopes, dreams and Faith. Who I am. Diane. To draw, paint, sculpt, crochet, cook, bake and be a homemaker. Whatever. It's who I am. Part of that is to create to please too. I want to make people in my life happy. But the creative process and style is about me.

It's time to put aside all the shame. The past is the past. Moving forward and living in the here and now. It's exciting times.

3 comments:

Niecey said...

Absolutely! Go with your gut, follow your heart and those longings. I believe God gives us instincts and passions for a reason and doesn't want us to snuff them out. He wants them to be used. It's healthy, it's beautiful, it's inspiring. Be authentic. I hope you find this time of self discovery and going out with boldness to be a healing and encouraging time.

Anonymous said...

yay!!!!! thank you for all of those words and know that you're not in this boat alone. ♥

Deirdra Doan said...

Knowing Jesus Christ is the most Freedom and Truth to one's self that one can be!!!! So much JOY!!!
oxox